Tears in Cities

Tonight I'm in London, alone in this hotel room
Traveling the whole world, lost in all the gloom
New York yesterday, Dubai is on its way
But every flight I take just pulls me far away
My husband’s fighting wars, serving in Afghanistan
And my children are growing up without my hand
I wonder if this life is what I truly need
I gave it all to work, but my heart starts to bleed
And as the rain falls outside, I cry here in pain
With the picture of my family, begging to feel whole again
God, give me strength, to return and make it right
When I get back to California, I’ll end this endless fight
'Cause the mother I was, is who I long to be
This guilt and sadness will fade when they’re back with me
Paris, just another stop, but I’m too numb to smile
All the things I’ve traded feel so wrong, so vile
Is it worth the price, this life I chase each day?
Every new success just takes more love away
My children need me near, my arms, my tender care
But I’m trapped in this lonely life, lost beyond repair
The career I thought I wanted has stolen all my time
When I return home, I’ll reclaim what is mine
And as the rain falls outside, I cry here in pain
With the picture of my family, begging to feel whole again
God, give me strength, to return and make it right
When I get back to California, I’ll end this endless fight
'Cause the mother I was, is who I long to be
This guilt and sadness will fade when they’re back with me
Tears fall in London, just like the heavy rain
But I know God is with me, washing away my shame
I’ll leave behind this chaos, this work, this empty race
What truly matters is my family's warm embrace
And as the rain falls outside, I cry here in pain
With the picture of my family, begging to feel whole again
God, give me strength, to return and make it right
When I get back to California, I’ll end this endless fight
'Cause the mother I was, is who I long to be
This guilt and sadness will fade when they’re back with me