“MASKS IN MY SKULL”

I wake up choking on the noise again,
Like insects crawling through my brain.
No peace, no silence, no safe place left,
Just thoughts like knives inside my chest.
I walk through faces that don’t look real,
Everything fake but I still feel.
Smile on the surface, glitch underneath,
I bite my tongue just to still my teeth.

Don’t tell me “calm down,”
Don’t tell me “it’s fine,”
You don’t hear the war
Living inside my mind!

I’M NOT OK — BUT I’M STILL HERE!
Screaming through the static fear!
I BREAK DOWN — I DON’T DISAPPEAR!
I TURN THE PAIN INTO A ROAR YOU HEAR!
I’M NOT DEAD — JUST FRAGMENTED!
SHATTERED, BUT STILL DEFENDED!
EVERY SCREAM I NEVER SAID
IS BANGING INSIDE MY HEAD!

I built a future out of broken glass,
Step by step through a toxic past.
I want a home, I want it real,
Not this constant electric feel.
Sometimes I split into versions of me,
One wants peace, one wants to bleed.
But I hold the line with shaking hands,
Trying to become what I never had.

You see my face,
You think it’s calm,
But inside my skull
There’s a fucking storm!

I’M NOT OK — BUT I’M STILL HERE…
Screaming through the static fear…

There’s a voice that says “give up now”…
But I spit it out, I don’t know how…
I tear myself apart and rebuild again…
From ash and rage and broken skin…

I’M NOT OK — BUT I’M STILL HERE!
I TURN THE PAIN INTO A ROAR YOU HEAR!
I’M NOT LOST — JUST OVERRIDDEN!
BUT I’M STILL BREATHING — STILL UNGIVEN!