I wake up choking on the noise again, Like insects crawling through my brain. No peace, no silence, no safe place left, Just thoughts like knives inside my chest. I walk through faces that don’t look real, Everything fake but I still feel. Smile on the surface, glitch underneath, I bite my tongue just to still my teeth.
Don’t tell me “calm down,” Don’t tell me “it’s fine,” You don’t hear the war Living inside my mind!
I’M NOT OK — BUT I’M STILL HERE! Screaming through the static fear! I BREAK DOWN — I DON’T DISAPPEAR! I TURN THE PAIN INTO A ROAR YOU HEAR! I’M NOT DEAD — JUST FRAGMENTED! SHATTERED, BUT STILL DEFENDED! EVERY SCREAM I NEVER SAID IS BANGING INSIDE MY HEAD!
I built a future out of broken glass, Step by step through a toxic past. I want a home, I want it real, Not this constant electric feel. Sometimes I split into versions of me, One wants peace, one wants to bleed. But I hold the line with shaking hands, Trying to become what I never had.
You see my face, You think it’s calm, But inside my skull There’s a fucking storm!
I’M NOT OK — BUT I’M STILL HERE… Screaming through the static fear…
There’s a voice that says “give up now”… But I spit it out, I don’t know how… I tear myself apart and rebuild again… From ash and rage and broken skin…
I’M NOT OK — BUT I’M STILL HERE! I TURN THE PAIN INTO A ROAR YOU HEAR! I’M NOT LOST — JUST OVERRIDDEN! BUT I’M STILL BREATHING — STILL UNGIVEN!