Between Essex and Bangkok

(verse 1)
I met you between the mirrors and the weight of the day,
pretending I’d lost my phone just to look your way.
You called it softly, like a warm Thai breeze,
and fate closed us together in a moment no one else could ever seize.

(verse 2)
I teased you in messages, you laughed quietly,
saying, “I’m not looking for a boyfriend… maybe someday, maybe not.”
Then coffee, then walking with the same gentle beat,
three years like a single heartbeat — two souls sharing one spot.

(chorus)
Between Essex and Bangkok I still whisper your name,
that March shattered the earth and carried you into silence again.
Those missed calls burn deeper than anything I know,
I never got to say, “Run, my love… please go.”
Buddha, if you hold her, keep her warm tonight,
for I won’t see her dress again, nor feel her fingers light.

(verse 3)
You flew home because your father’s strength was gone,
you said, “Family is everything — it’s how we’re born.”
You buried him softly with a Buddhist dawn,
one month later the earth took you in a thundered storm.

(bridge)
I deleted your pictures, thinking pain would fade,
but I only lost you twice in the same quiet shade.
Now I search for your shadow in the UK sky,
saying, “I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you said goodbye.”

(final chorus)
Between Essex and Bangkok I carry your name as a song,
you never fought with me — now I fight alone to stay strong.
If you hear me up there, beyond rubble and light,
know this… I still love you.
Goodbye, my heart, goodnight.