Alone Again

Alone in my room, thoughts loud like thunder
He said he loves me, but I wonder
Late night texts turn to nothin
say he got me, but he frontin
Looking at his words, they don't match his moves
Told me I'm his world, but I see the proof
Why I feel like a dumb ass caught in a loop
You got my heart, but you threw it off the roof

Alone, Depressed, I keep it on mute
motherfuckers talk, but they don't know the truth
they say "end it" like I'm some lost cause
But I'm still here, middle fingers to the odds
Fuck all the haters, fuck all the lies
I'm tryna survive, but I'm dead in the eyes
Yeah, I'm still breathin, but barely afloat
With a smile on my face and a slit in my throat

He said "you my girl" then went ghost for days
Love ain't love when you move that way
my chest heavy, every night feel colder
Wishin I had someone's shoulder
Assholes act like they know what I need
But they ain't there when I beg, when I bleed
I hear the whispers, the shade they throw
Tellin me "quite" like I won't glow

I'm a storm in a body, a fire in pain
and I swear, I won't break, won't die in vain
They label me crazy, unstable, a mess
But I rise from the ashes, even when I'm depressed
They push me down, Wanna see me lose
But I lace up pain like I lace my shoes

Alone, Depressed, I keep it on mute
motherfuckers talk, but they don't know the truth
they say "end it" like I'm some lost cause
But I'm still here, middle fingers to the odds
Fuck all the haters, fuck all the lies
I'm tryna survive, but I'm dead in the eyes
Yeah, I'm still breathin, but barely afloat
With a smile on my face and a slit in my throat

I might be alone, but I'm still fightin
Every tear I shed turns thunder and lightin
you ain't break me, not this time
this girl gon shine, pain and all in every rhyme