Hope

Bitter past on my back like smoke in my coat,
too many nights alone, barely stay afloat.
Trusted faces, words, hands that felt real,
every promise faded, now it’s silence I feel.

The present ain’t better, it just hurts less loud,
smile in the daylight, but I’m lost in the crowd.
I fear death, fear time, fear running out fast,
like I’ll disappear before love can last.

I ask myself if true love’s meant for me,
or if it’s just a story other hearts get to see.
Digging through ruins of a heart torn apart,
hoping someone won’t run when they see my dark.

But I’m still here, still hoping, still breathing somehow,
believing light will find me, not just then but now.
Even if it hurts, I won’t let it go,
’cause hope is the only thing keeping me whole.

Yeah I’m still here, still waiting, standing my ground,
a happier future trying hard to be found.
My heart may be broken, the road may be long,
but one day someone will say: “You’re where I belong.”

True love ain’t loud, it’s quiet and deep,
it doesn’t promise forever, it just stays when you bleed.
It doesn’t want perfect, just honest and true,
won’t walk away when the storm hits you.

I fear time will end before I finally find
the one who sees more than scars in my mind.
That death moves faster than words I can say,
before I confess what I hide every day.

Still I search through faces, through nights and through pain,
hoping one soul won’t see me as a game.
I don’t want much, just someone to stay,
to choose me even on my weakest days.

’Cause I’m still here, still hoping, still holding the line,
telling my heart that the wait is worth time.
Even if it breaks, I won’t let it fall,
hope’s the reason I’m standing at all.

Yeah I’m still here, still dreaming somehow,
of love that feels safe, not lost, not allowed.
The past may be bitter, the now feels cold,
but the future I’m chasing is warm and gold