Breaking friendship

I feel deep in my bones
How much I miss someone I known.
That shit what happend
makes me so under.
I know, you never loved me like I did,
you never though we'll be forever
together.
But we used to talk about the future,
that we will be besties 'till end of the time.
So where we now?

Why we couldn't talk it?
Why you were too scary to tell me,
to tell me the story?
Why we messed up this bad?
How we ended like that?

I felt I die you were my last try,
But now I'm still here, breath and
shining.
And oh I'm waiting you to say me "I'm so sorry".
I know it's dumb but please explain
Why you were the one who got angry?
And tell me

Why we couldn't talk it?
Why you were too scary to tell me,
to tell me the story?
Why we messed up this bad?
How we ended like that?