Paper Train Window

[Verse 1]
I kept your blue train ticket
In the book by my bed
It fell out this morning
Like a word you never said
Your name on my phone
Still lights up my hand
I read it and freeze
Like I’m learning to stand

[Pre-Chorus]
I wore that old dress
You said looked like rain
Now it hangs by the door
Still holding your name
I wanted to ask
What I meant to you
But the night kept its mouth shut
And I did too

[Chorus]
I’m still here
Still here
With my heart on mute
I’m still here
Still here
And I wanted you
You were close
Then gone
Like a song half-known
I’m still here
Still here
Alone in your ghost

[Verse 2]
The café on Fifth
Changed the chairs and the cups
But the table we sat at
Still stumbles me up
I saw your laugh
In a stranger’s face
And I had to look down
Just to leave that place

[Pre-Chorus]
You said “maybe sometime”
Like it meant “never” soon
I saved all the maybes
Like a room with no roof
I wanted to stay
In that almost-touch
Now the air in my lungs
Feels a little too much

[Chorus]
I’m still here
Still here
With my heart on mute
I’m still here
Still here
And I wanted you
You were close
Then gone
Like a song half-known
I’m still here
Still here
Alone in your ghost

[Bridge]
If I saw you tonight
I’d know what to do
I’d smile with my mouth
And fall apart on cue
I don’t need forever
Just one honest line
Was I ever your maybe
Or only mine

[Chorus]
I’m still here
Still here
With my heart on mute
I’m still here
Still here
And I wanted you
You were close
Then gone
Like a song half-known
I’m still here
Still here
Alone in your ghost