Letters in My Head

Yeah…
2 a.m., city quiet outside
but my mind still fighting a war.

I don’t say the name, just a letter in my mind,
one damn memory that I can’t leave behind.
Started with a smile, thought it felt so real,
now every little flashback cuts like steel.

Promises, words — maybe all a lie,
I believed that shit, yeah I don’t know why.
Now my brain keeps playing every scene again,
like a broken movie I can’t fucking end.

They say “just move on”, like it’s easy to do,
but the past hits harder when the night comes through.

PTSD in my head, fucking flashbacks,
letters in my heart I can’t take back.
Trying to move forward but the past pulls me,
like invisible chains I can’t break free.

PTSD in my head, damn these nights,
didn’t ask for these ghosts in my mind.
Trust fell apart, now the pieces remain,
maybe someday I’ll be stronger than the pain.

Streetlights glow, cold wind on my skin,
old messages still cut deep within.
Reading every line like a blade again,
every “I miss you” just feeds the pain.

Thought you were different, thought it was true,
now it’s just a scar that reminds me of you.
Sometimes I laugh but deep down I know
some memories never really let go.

Maybe one day it’ll all fade away,
like ink in the rain on a page of yesterday.
Till then this beat is the place I breathe,
every single bar is therapy for me.

PTSD in my head, fucking flashbacks,
letters in my heart I can’t take back.
Trying to move forward but the past pulls me,
like invisible chains I can’t break free.

PTSD in my head, damn these nights,
didn’t ask for these ghosts in my mind.
Trust fell apart, now the pieces remain,
maybe someday I’ll be stronger than the pain.

I don’t say the name.
Just a letter remains.
But maybe one day
even that won’t hurt.