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I was still singing to the mirror
With a broken smile and a lost voice
Every time I saw you in my eyes
I felt myself slowly losing a piece of me
I would’ve become you if I had stayed
I would’ve worn your mask and forgotten who I am
I would’ve locked the door on my heart
And told everyone “I’m fine”

But in that final moment of choice
I heard my own voice screaming from far away
I won’t let you write my ending
I won’t let you dress me in your skin

I left before I became you
Before I forgot the taste of real tears
I left before I became you
And lived inside your mirror, too scared to admit who I am

I left the coffee to go cold on the table
I left your words hanging in the air
I left our pictures that used to laugh
So I wouldn’t become like you — silent
Every step away from you was terrifying
But staying felt even more frightening
So I chose to run while I was still me
Instead of staying and turning into a copy of you

I left before I became you
Before I sold my soul in installments
I left before I became you
And looked in the mirror and found no one worth loving

It wasn’t hate that made me leave
It was the fear of loving you more than myself
I chose to be a stranger on the road
Rather than a ghost haunting your house

I left before I became you
Before I forgot how to cry when I’m alone
I left before I became you
Because there’s still a tiny part of me left
That loves being just me

I left…
But I’m still searching for a place
That remembers my face the way it used to be
Before I got too close to you
And lost myself completely.