Giving up

I don't really wanna fight anymore
Been there, done that
Tired to the core
I just want to rest, I just want peace
I don't want to pretend
Sometimes I don't wanna feel
And I'm not running away
Cause every step is pain
And I'm not even afraid
It's not worth the wait
I'm just to exhausted
To even try
And even if it's all a lie

I'm giving up
I'm just letting it be
Isn't that the thing you told me?
I'm not searching anymore
Let it find me
And if it won't?
Well it just wasn't meant to be

I'm closing the book
The past is said and done
Any lesson I've learnt
It's already set in stone
And maybe I'm hiding
But the light makes me blind
And maybe I'm closing
But opening is too hard
I wanted to give
So much
But every time I try
Well the well is empty now
And I'm sorry that I couldn't
Save it for You
But now there's nothing left
And I can't pull through

I'm giving up
I'm just letting it be
Isn't that the thing you told me?
I'm not searching anymore
Let it find me
And if it won't?
Well it just wasn't meant to be

And I'm not trying to somehow
Blackmail You
The voices in my head
Just make me this emotional
It's not them or You
I'm so glad and thankful
That You stayed with me
But the truth is..
It may just not be meant to be

I'm giving up
I'm just letting it be
Isn't that the thing you told me?
I'm not searching anymore
Let it find me
And if it won't?
Well it just wasn't meant to be