Beautiful disaster

So they say it's
So they say it's easy to forget
Just one magic word and badaboom! reset i always try every possibile way
To throw this heaviness away
But the green monster wants to eat me
I don't know if he'll ever free me
I hope he's not searching for the heart
That would be the last part
All the strength that i had, i had it for you
I thought you were a mermaid
And i was nothing new
I remember how i use to admire you
Your unique nature, i wanted that too
I wanted to be just like you
But i had to keep secrets, i was always blue
You painted all my walls
With all the happiest colors
It felt like a masquerade,
My beautiful, toothless mermaid
So They say to forgive and forget
Remember your spell? Badaboom! Reset
But sometimes before i try it again
I'm afraid to lose my green friend
So familiar, at times so dark
He's not the green Chakra of the heart
All the strength that i had, i had it for you
I thought you were a mermaid
That i was nothing new
I remember how i use to admire you
Your unique nature i wanted that too
I wanted to be just like you
You used to draw me witches
I started to love them like you do
You claimed you were one of them
So you took that from me too