first time

First time I saw you, I didn't know your name,
Didn't know that a moment could fuck with my brain.
You were just a girl, I was just passing through,
Now somehow all these memories lead back to you.
Didn't plan for the feelings, they came out of nowhere,
One minute I'm calm, next minute you're everywhere.
Head started spinning, I was losing my pace,
Trying to understand what I saw in your face.
Then days turned to nights, and the talks got deep,
Talking 'bout life when we should've been asleep.
Talking 'bout the future like we knew where we'd be,
You next to me, me next to you, crazy.
Then came the distance, then came the doubt,
One minute you're in, next minute you're out.
Block, unblock, silence, then we're talking again,
How can something feel right and still cause this much pain?
I gave you my heart, maybe gave it too quick,
Tried holding it back, but I'm bad at that shit.
You told me you couldn't give me the same,
Still somehow I stayed when I knew what you said.
And maybe that's love, or maybe that's madness,
Maybe the best things can come with some sadness.
I don't know if you're mine, I don't know if you're not,
I just know what we had ain't something I forgot.
So I won't chase you, I won't beg you to stay,
If it's meant to come back, it'll find its own way.
I'm building my life, got my eyes on the road,
But if one day we're both ready, we'll see what unfolds.
'Cause first time I saw you, you were nobody to me,
Now you're one of the hardest people to leave.
Funny how life works, how a stranger can be
Someone you lose, and still hope you'll one day see.