Loathe

Alone again, in the silence I stay,
Haunted by the words I didn’t say,
The past is heavy, it won’t let go,
And I’m the only one left to know.
I hate myself for who I’ve been,
For every lie, for every sin,
The future’s blurry, lost in fear,
Can’t tell if hope will ever reappear.
Regret’s a shadow that clings so tight,
It drowns my days and haunts my nights,
I look ahead, but all I see,
Are the broken pieces left of me.
I hate myself for who I’ve been,
For every loss, for every win,
The future’s distant, out of reach,
And I’m stuck on this empty beach.
Alone again, with just my pain,
I wonder if I’ll ever change.