RECOVERING MYSELF

I need to free myself from myself.
To identify with other lives, themselves.
And abandon my frosted windowpane.
Where I see and other cannot see my pain.
I need to free myself from myself.
Turn my back to my fears, to meet yourself.
To be able to feel you alive, with my flesh,
To love you as you love or more. No more trash.
I need to free myself from myself and more.
To find my best friend in front of my door.
He, who turned his back on my stubbornness.
Who said positive no's recovering my firmness.
I need to free myself from myself
In abandonment to my own fate by myself.
To witness now not anymore my death from afar.
In an implosion of bad feelings, so far.
But resisting strongly my feelings, so far.
Firm again in search of happiness, here or afar.