Eighteen

(INTRO)
"Please, may you arrive home safely"
"I love you"
(Verse 1)
A child
Where the only safe haven was her mother
I just wanted her to arrive safely
And give me a big hug
Her life meant my life
I wish my worry had been just that
(Verse 2)
This child was growing up
And the fears appeared
Anxiety came like a monster from nightmares
But in real life
(Pre-Chorus)
I didn't know what it was or why
I just felt, thought and cried
I wanted help
But I didn't know how to speak
Because I was afraid of being labeled
(Nobody understood. Not at home, not anywhere)
(Chorus)
I wish I had been a child who only played
Laughed and thought nonsense
But I was one who was afraid of not reaching eighteen
I wish I had dreamed of good things
But I dreamed of staying alive until then
(Verse 3)
Every day was a struggle
What could I do to be happy
Even if it was just for a moment
Like a bird, I wanted to fly
But I had my wings clipped every day
All this while being a child
(Chorus)
I wish I had been a child who only played
Laughed and thought nonsense
But I was one who was afraid of not reaching eighteen
I wish I had dreamed of good things
But I dreamed of staying alive until then
(Bridge)
But I reached 18 and passed it
I celebrate this achievement every day
Because I thought it was impossible
And I am so grateful for it
(You were really strong, and you still are)
(Chorus)
I wish I had been a child who only played
Laughed and thought nonsense
But I was one who was afraid of not reaching eighteen
I wish I had dreamed of good things
But I dreamed of staying alive until then
Eighteeeennnn