Life

Verse 1
I tell everybody I'm alright,
Got a smile that I wear like a disguise.
Laugh at the jokes, say I'm doing fine,
But nobody sees what keeps me up at night.

There's a hole in the middle of my chest,
And no matter what I do, it never rests.
I keep reaching for the peace I used to know,
But it feels like it packed its bags and left long ago.

Pre-Chorus
And every time they ask me how I've been,
I say "good" and change the subject again.

Chorus
'Cause I'm never okay, I'm just good at pretending,
Holding on to pieces while the world keeps spinning.
Got a heart full of scars and a smile on my face,
Trying to outrun pain but it knows every place.

I'm never okay, but I'm still standing somehow,
Screaming in my head while I'm silent right now.
If you look in my eyes, you'll see what I can't say,
I've been carrying this weight and I'm never okay.

Verse 2
I still hear your name in crowded rooms,
Still see your shadow when the flowers bloom.
Funny how goodbye can last for years,
Living rent-free inside your fears.

Some nights I drive with nowhere to go,
Just me and the memories on an empty road.
Thinking maybe if I keep moving fast enough,
I won't feel how much losing hurts.

Pre-Chorus
But every morning finds me where I've been,
Trying to put myself together again.

Chorus
'Cause I'm never okay, I'm just good at pretending,
Holding on to pieces while the world keeps spinning.
Got a heart full of scars and a smile on my face,
Trying to outrun pain but it knows every place.

I'm never okay, but I'm still standing somehow,
Screaming in my head while I'm silent right now.
If you look in my eyes, you'll see what I can't say,
I've been carrying this weight and I'm never okay.

Bridge
Maybe healing isn't waking up brand new,
Maybe it's surviving what you thought you'd never get through.
Maybe being strong ain't never feeling pain,
Maybe it's getting up and trying again.

And maybe one day the storm inside will break,
But tonight all I know is—

Final Chorus
I'm never okay, but I'm learning to be honest,
Tired of acting like my brokenness is harmless.
Got tears in my soul and hope in my veins,
And somehow they both keep calling my name.

I'm never okay, but that don't mean I'm gone,
Every crack in my heart taught me how to hold on.
If you're fighting like me, if you're barely getting by,
You're not alone in the dark tonight.

No, I'm never okay...
But I'm still here.
Still breathing.
Still trying.
And maybe that's enough tonight