A missing father

A little boy.
Just three years old.
My memory lane.
Or what’s been told.
By the lake.
In stormy weather.
People screaming.
Boots of leather.
True or false.
One special time.
Eyes that met.
His and mine.
[This person.
I never knew.
That never told me.
Just what to do.
That never took.
And hold me tight.
Just whispered softly.
It’ll be allright.]
Years went by.
I carried on.
Some kind of feeling.
Always alone.
In my heart.
An empty space.
Accept the grief.
Don’t know his face.
Through troubled water.
The doubt inside.
The biggest sorrow.
I tried to hide.
[This person.
I never knew.
That never told me.
Just what to do.
That never took.
And hold me tight.
Just whispered softly.
It’ll be allright.]
Even though.
I could see.
A loving family.
Next to me.
In my heart.
An empty space.
If I only knew.
Could see his face.
I wonder.
And I long.
But nothing happend.
Forever gone.
[This person.
I never knew.
That never told me.
Just what to do.
That never took.
And hold me tight.
Just whispered softly.
It’ll be allright.]
Present time.
My inner voice.
Makes it clear.
I did my choice.
They’ll never doubt.
I’m always here.
Beloved children.
Nothing to fear.
[Cause I’m the person
I hope you know.
If I can.
I’ll tell you how.
I’ll take you all.
I’ll hold you tight.
I’ll whisper softly.
It’ll be allright.
And when I’m gone.
You’ll always see.
Your father.
That was me.]