Blue Mug

[Verse 1]
Your blue mug’s by the sink again
I turn it so the handle faces out
Like you might walk in from the rain
And ask me what I’m thinking about

I kept the easy parts for myself
Left you to carry what I wouldn’t say
You gave me all your honest hours
I let too many slip away

[Pre-Chorus]
I know an apology can’t change
The nights you needed me to stay

[Chorus]
I wish I’d made this softer for you
Been the safe place you deserved
Now I’ve lost the girl I loved
And my best friend in the world
If I could take back every silence
Every time I let you hurt
I’d give you more than I knew how to
But wishing doesn’t turn the words

[Verse 2]
Your laugh still lives inside my phone
In a voice note from a Tuesday drive
You were telling me about your day
I was there, but not all the way alive

You knew the names behind my jokes
Could tell when I was hiding something true
I miss the way you saw right through me
More than I know how to say to you

[Pre-Chorus]
I know you had to choose yourself
I hope the quiet treats you well

[Chorus]
I wish I’d made this softer for you
Been the safe place you deserved
Now I’ve lost the girl I loved
And my best friend in the world
If I could take back every silence
Every time I let you hurt
I’d give you more than I knew how to
But wishing doesn’t turn the words

[Bridge]
I won’t ask you to come back
Or make your leaving something wrong
You gave me years of being known
I’m sorry I didn’t meet you there all along

[Final Chorus]
I wish I’d made this softer for you
I hope someone does what I couldn’t do
You were more than just the one I loved
You were the friend I told things to
I’ll keep that blue mug where it is
Till the ache has had its turn
I wanted you to have a better love
I’m learning what that means too late

[Outro]
Your blue mug’s by the sink again
I leave the handle facing in