Zak

Where is the time goin' again?
Slipping through my calloused hands
I lost a home, I lost a friend
Now the silence screams where the laughter used to stand
I gave you my best, bled every line
Poured my fucking soul in every sign
Was it enough? Was it ever enough?
Or was I just another diamond in your rough?

Maybe the past is holding me up
Like chains around my throat, like a loaded cup
I keep the memories with me every night
Replay what was… replay what died…

WILL I EVER SMILE AGAIN?!
Or is this the scar that never ends?!
Love's an ocean – sink or swim!
I'm still drowning in the wreck you left me in!
WILL I EVER SMILE AGAIN?!
Scream it to the sky until my lungs give in!
I gave you everything – now give me back my skin!
WILL I EVER… SMILE… AGAIN?!

Clock keeps laughing in the rearview mirror
Every mile marker says "you can't come back here"
I built our castle out of promises and rust
Now I'm sleeping in the ruins, eating heartbreak dust
I keep your ghost right here beside me
Like a loaded gun I’m too afraid to fire
I tell myself "just one more day"
But every sunrise feels like funeral pyre

Maybe the past is holding me up
Iron fingers wrapped around my cup
I keep the memories, I cradle the pain
Replay what was… just to feel something again…

WILL I EVER SMILE AGAIN?!
Or is this the scar that never ends?!
Love's an ocean – sink or swim!
I'm still fucking drowning in the wreck you left me in!
WILL I EVER SMILE AGAIN?!
Voice cracking open, bleeding through the wind!
I gave you everything – now give me back my skin!
WILL I EVER… SMILE… AGAIN?!

(half-screamed, building intensity)
I’m tired of bleeding for yesterday!
Tired of choking on words I’ll never say!
If this is living then cut the cord!
I’d rather burn than stay this fucking bored!

…So tell me…
One last time…

CAN I EVER SMILE AGAIN?!
Or do I carry this weight until the bitter end?!
Love was an ocean – I sank, I swam
Now I’m crawling back to shore with shaking hands!
I WANNA SMILE AGAIN!
Rip the bandage, let the light come in!
I gave you my best – now I’m taking it back again!
I’M GONNA SMILE AGAIN!
YEAH I’M GONNA SMILE AGAIN!!!

SMILE… AGAIN…
(I’m still here)
SMILE… AGAIN…