My requiem

People? How do you see me?
Walking with a girl on his arm,
or yearning in the night?
A funny guy who likes jokes,
a poet who writes poetry?
My words and conversations can lie forever...
but who am I really?..
You don't know that!!!
You! You are just people living in the world for the sake of...
To who? To yourself? And no one, except ...
going forward, You look back ...
Maybe there is the happiness that You were waiting for?
But when you didn't see the truth, you let it pass through your fingers...
You looked listlessly at it,
like a dark night in the sky...
But you didn't see anything in it,
and you weren't happy...
Going forward, living only for yourself...
You dreamed of joy and light...
But remember!? Have You lived in love.
In your pursuit of victory...?
You said to yourself:
- "That's not it! My reward is more beautiful!!!"
Rejected, but only for what? And again you went on...
You were waiting for a miracle, like manna from heaven!
I walked, laughed, and feasted... I wasted my days...
dreaming:- "It will come to me!!!" Has it come? Alas...
And now the day has come when You realized,
That was ALL, and that's all, alas, you've lost!
After all, perfection is a myth!
And the holy Grail was a tin cup -
The work of a carpenter, not a jeweler..
I'll tell you so, my friend!
- I'm the same way! And I would be glad to live,
It's kind of sickening... when you have to give yourself an answer!
The answer! For abandoning someone, or not helping someone who was waiting for it so much...
It's a sin on my soul that I didn't meet their expectations of those I loved!
And it's left to live with, to exist.
It remains to fill yourself with music.