Inside my mind

"I don't know if I'm living or just passing by,
It’s like wanting to lie down and just cry for no why.
It’s like wanting to say 'screw it,' but not knowing the cause,
Like hearing a song that has no rhythm or pause,
A journey that’s aimless
"I just want to know what my fate would be,
'Cause I don’t know why the hell I see what I see.
Asking who I am would be a mere rhetorical question,
One that I wouldn’t know how to answer, no suggestion."
"Because I don’t understand how illness makes death more appealing than life,
When even I can’t grasp this second part of the strife.
And when the day comes that my wishes are fulfilled,
I’ll be nothing more than a piece of rotten flesh, unskilled.
"Because my emotions are just a knot in my throat,
A roar in vain,
Obscenities from the depths of my heart,
Inappropriate thoughts I couldn't control,
When all I really wanted was to be... here."