"How?"

how can I make them love me?
how do I get praised?
i don't know,i don't know,i don't know,i don't know
Just let me know...
Every time, every time, every every every time
I'm thinking about it..
I do not know what to do...
I need help...
Help, help, help me, all of you..
I do not know, I do not see, it's like I'm in a dream..
Everything is closed, everything is ridiculous, everything is wrong and so wrong
I need help...
I always tell everyone,
"Everything will be great!"
But I always blame myself, saying:
"everything will be bad.."
Always tell yourself,
"everything is awesome, everything is gorgeous!"
They were talking...
I try to be
the best and most beautiful for everyone
But I hear rumors saying that I'm terrible...
They tell me everything that I'm the angriest person in the world,
but it's not like that, I'm the kindest person in the world..
I can't live anymore, there's no more fire here.
how can I make them love me?
how do I get praised?